Traumatized Motherfuckers
Not Damaged, Not Doomed, Not Dead Yet
So your head is a hellscape… and you’re tired of spinning in concentric circles.
Time to escape the pit, Fucker.
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What is CPTSD?
Common Symptoms
Typical Life Outcomes
Triggers and “Parts” by Neuroscience
What IS Traumatized Motherfuckers?
Knowing you went through trauma is validating.
But understanding how your brain has been operating on survival adaptations ever since? Is how you heal.
Those answers are hard to come by. So this human made a show about it. Then a bunch of other Fuckers joined in.
We combine peer-reviewed research with higher-education, t-recovery wisdom, community insights, and none of the brightsides.
Grounding common trauma experiences in scientific findings, to prove once and for all “you aren’t alone.”
And applying the knowledge to define our targets for effective rewiring.
Talking about trauma in a way that leads to rehabilitation, rather than over-identification with the past
or applying toxic positivity to the present.
For more info, check the About section and FAQs.
Some Kind words
What I do want you to know is that your podcast and analysis of the science, then converting it into understandable common English did more to understand my brain/mind functioning than any therapist or psychiatrist ever has.
I have just discovered your podcast and you have verbalized my entire being. For the first time in my life I exist. If I exist I am not worthless therefore I should look after what I have. I truly don’t feel as alone in my deep dispair because of everything you mentioned.
There’s much I could say about the work you‘re doing and the message you send out to the world, but the reason I continue to tune in is simple – I like the way you talk. While listening I often times feel stronger. It’s a reminder that perhaps what was lost can yet be found.
It’s going to be hard to put into words how grateful and fortunate I feel about your latest Mailbag podcast episode addressing my question. With the massive lack of self-worth that I have, it felt like I didn’t deserve it but it also filled me with an enormous sense of hope.
the disembodied voice
Hey, that’s also how I experience myself most of the time.
Name’s Jess. 33 / transient homebase / dirtpunk / pronouns are dealer’s choice.
I always struggled with mental illness, but nothing helped. Instead, I fell into the “overachiever niche,” trying to prove my right to exist. That led to accidentally becoming a cellular biologist / peer-reviewed scientist…
But the inner suffering never stopped.
It took an abusive relationship / life catastrophe to stumble my way to a CPTSD diagnosis. I got nerdy about it. My life suddenly made sense. And I didn’t want to hoard the sanity-imparting news.
These days, I use that past life as a scientist for a purpose.
I research issues related to Complex Trauma & PTSD Recovery, break down the studies, and wrap those findings up with less-sunny-side reflections. Spreading self-understanding to the masses…. without all the reductive fluff that drives us away from real answers.
At the same time, the show has a way of bringing recovery-dedicated & like-minded folks together. The show attracted a community dedicated to breaking the cycles and living healthily, depite our shared trauma programming. This project wouldn’t exist without the crew; the Real Motherfuckers who’ve supported me to do the work, and who’ve bravely shared their own stories, brains, and t-wisdoms.
You’ll find out… We’re all in this together. You’ve never been alone, broken, damaged, or doomed.
Welcome to Research x Community Healing for CPTSD Recovery.
Cheers!
MFJess. B.S. – Animal Science, Pre-Med. Chemistry minor. M.S. – Psych, Behavioral Science.
Lifelong TMFR
Side pic: DIY podcast glamour. When cost of living >>> pay of spreading info, ya live in a car and keep rolling.
See you in the Fucking Fort.