Ever heard of Deactivation? I hadn't either. But it explains a lot about my do-or-die relationships and flighty...
Posts in Category "Patron Season 02"
✭✭✭ Early Days Rerelease: 2.16 Shame and C-PTSD
What the fuck IS shame, exactly? How is it different from guilt? How does it interplay with Trauma? Doing some "real...
2.15 “Revert to Draft” | Two months in my childhood home
August 15th, 2020 "You can come home," my mom has {usually} said. "I would rather die," I've always replied. So, it's...
2.14 School: Applied Behavior Analysis and Trauma Recovery
Guess who's going back to school? Mhmm, yer girl's getting her M.S. in ABA (Applied Behavior Analysis) after years of...
2.13 Early Days Rerelease: Trauma and physical manifestions
So... things suddenly aren't going so well with your body? Weird shit is happening, acutely and chronically? ...
✭ 2.12 Early Trauma Coping: Punk Rock Saved My Life
Punk is the trauma genre, drawing misfits and unwanted outsiders together to create their own community. And they...
2.11 Victim or Motherfucker? Has Trauma ever “helped”?
Unpopular opinion; early trauma gave me a lot of positive personality traits… you know, along with all the terrible...
2.10 Caring for everyone… but you
I'm great at taking care of everyone… but myself. Always dissociated. Always slave-driving. Always worried about...
2.9 Walkntalk | “All your fault,” shinner critic screams.
Shit inner critic, that is. Mine‘s been rearing his ugly fucking face in regards to personal relationships… Logical...
2.8 Early Days Rerelease: Traumastates – Like remembering a fever nightmare
Looking back on those days of trauma-responses and utter misery... sometimes feels more like trying to remember a...
2.7 Complex obstacle; Starting therapy
What's harder than living in hell everyday? Finding someone who can help you get out.
✭✭ 2.6 What IS Complex Trauma? Off the Cuff
Spoilers: this episode is re-done in 2021! Check out the newer scripted version, which kicked off the new (shitty)...
✭✭ 2.5 Relatable | Was it really “Trauma?”
"Or am I just sensitive?" It's hard to know, when our culture has reduced "PTSD" to mean "Soldiers' disease." Oh, and...
✭✭ 2.4 Early Days Rerelease: Emotional roller coasters; The rise is relative to the fall
Anyone else have big emotions that shift faster than the wind? One moment I'm floating, the next I'm fucking sinking....
2.3 Early Days Rerelease: “I can’t” | Too inferior to fail
Always waiting for something to change before you can? Convinced that the obstacle is too large - and uncomfortable -...
2.2 Early Days Rerelease: “I’m doing fine,” and other human lies
Revisiting an old post, from May 2020. Tired of painting on a happy face? We all are. For better or for worse,...