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2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

by | Jul 17, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 02, Public Rereleases, Seasons

This podcast episode explores the concept of “masking” in trauma recovery, discussing how individuals often hide their true selves and struggles behind a facade of normalcy. The host shares personal experiences with developing and maintaining masks, from childhood through adulthood, and the impact this has had on relationships and self-perception. The episode also touches on the process of gradually removing these masks and the positive effects of embracing vulnerability and authenticity in recovery.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

Early Days Rerelease: Trauma Loops pt II: Stagnancy, terrible relationships, and self-abuse

by | Jul 8, 2020 | Series, Endless Trauma Loops, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases

This podcast episode explores the concept of “trauma loops” – repetitive patterns of behavior stemming from past traumatic experiences. The host discusses personal examples of these loops, including cycles of stagnancy and overwork, problematic relationships, escapist tendencies, and health obsessions. The episode also touches on positive patterns that can emerge from self-reflection and offers insights into breaking these cycles. The discussion aims to help listeners recognize similar patterns in their own lives and consider strategies for overcoming them.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

1.16 Early Days Rerelease: Leveraging Anger in the war of Complex Trauma Recovery

by | Jul 5, 2020 | Seasons, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases

This podcast episode explores the unconventional use of anger as a motivational tool in trauma recovery. The host discusses how accessing anger can provide energy and determination when other positive emotions feel out of reach. Drawing from personal experiences and punk rock influences, the episode offers insights into channeling difficult emotions constructively. The discussion also touches on the importance of eventually moving beyond anger towards forgiveness and healing.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

✭ 1.15 Early Days Rerelease: Fear and Helplessness | There is no merit in worrying

by | Jul 1, 2020 | Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful

This podcast episode explores the impact of fear, helplessness, and excessive worrying on individuals with complex trauma. The host shares personal experiences with driving anxiety and agoraphobia, discussing how these issues developed and were eventually overcome. The episode offers insights into the nature of worry, its roots in trauma, and practical strategies to challenge and reduce anxious thought patterns. Listeners are encouraged to focus on present realities rather than imagined future scenarios and to build self-trust through action.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

1.14 Early Days Rerelease: Live | Shaking off shitty behaviors and getting trauma on track

by | Jul 1, 2020 | MF Speaks, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons

This podcast episode explores the host’s recent experiences with trauma recovery, including the challenges of returning to their hometown and the importance of maintaining positive routines and mindset. The host discusses how consuming uplifting content and maintaining a consistent self-care routine has positively impacted their mental health and perspective. They also share a personal breakthrough in discussing generational trauma with their mother and reflect on the growth of their supportive online community for trauma survivors.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

1.12 ✭ Early Days Rerelease: Endless Trauma Loops | Why do they happen

by | Jun 24, 2020 | Endless Trauma Loops, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Series, Voted Most Helpful

This podcast episode explores the concept of “endless trauma loops” in Complex PTSD recovery. The host discusses how childhood trauma can lead to repetitive patterns in adult life, influenced by subconscious programming, core beliefs, and inner critics. The episode delves into why individuals might repeat harmful patterns despite having insight into their behavior. It also touches on the importance of self-awareness, pattern recognition, and self-forgiveness in breaking these cycles. The host shares personal experiences and reflections to illustrate these concepts.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

✭ 1.11 Early Days Rerelease: Complex Trauma and insecure attachments

by | Jun 24, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful

This podcast episode explores the challenges of romantic relationships for individuals with Complex PTSD. The host shares personal experiences with obsessive thinking, insecure attachment, and self-sabotaging patterns in relationships. The discussion covers topics such as ambiguity in new partnerships, the impact of past trauma on current relationships, and the struggle to maintain personal goals while in a relationship. The episode also touches on the process of self-reflection and the potential benefits of focusing on personal growth outside of romantic partnerships.

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1.10 “Revert to Draft” | LIVE from my childhood home; Experiments and Results in C-PTSD management

by | Jun 14, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Seasons

June 14th, 2020. Who’s back home and losing my trauma recovery footing? This guy! When we left off, I was talking trauma and triggers caused by revisiting my roots. What’s happened since then? Instead of fleeing from my discomfort for the safety of Atlanta…....
2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

✭ 1.8 Early Days Rerelease: Visiting home and trauma journey backslides

by | Jun 6, 2020 | Seasons, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Voted Most Helpful

This podcast episode explores the challenges of managing Complex PTSD during a visit to the childhood home. The host shares personal experiences with anxiety, depression, and addiction recovery, discussing how environmental changes can trigger old patterns. The episode highlights various coping strategies, including mindfulness, exercise, and creative pursuits. It emphasizes the importance of maintaining mental health routines and self-compassion during difficult times, offering listeners insights into the ongoing nature of trauma recovery.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

✭ 1.3 Early Days Rerelease: Intro to my C-PSTD

by | May 24, 2020 | Public Podcast, Early CPTSD Info, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful

This podcast episode revisits an early blog post from the Traumatized Motherfuckers website, offering a raw and vulnerable introduction to the host’s experience with Complex PTSD. It covers personal trauma history, self-critical thoughts, hidden struggles, and coping mechanisms. The host emphasizes the importance of vulnerability in connecting with others who may be experiencing similar challenges. The episode aims to provide listeners with a relatable and honest account of living with and working through trauma.

2.1 Early Days Rerelease: The masks we wear; Hiding mental illness

✭ 1.1 Early Days Rerelease: I am the Traumatized Motherfucker

by | May 18, 2020 | Public Podcast, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful

This podcast episode introduces the Traumatized Motherfuckers podcast, discussing the host’s personal journey with Complex PTSD and childhood trauma. It explores the challenges of overcoming self-doubt, fear, and limiting beliefs stemming from traumatic experiences. The host shares insights on building resilience, finding community support, and making positive life changes despite a difficult past. The episode aims to inspire listeners who may be struggling with similar issues, emphasizing the possibility of personal growth and healing.