1.10 “Revert to Draft” | LIVE from my childhood home; Experiments and Results in C-PTSD management
June 14th, 2020. Who’s back home and losing my trauma recovery footing? This guy! When we left off, I was talking trauma and triggers caused by revisiting my roots. What’s happened since then? Instead of fleeing from my discomfort for the safety of Atlanta…....
LIVE: Back in my childhood home. Losing routine & losing my goddamn mind
This is part of the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. This post wasn’t supposed to happen. But I’m so anxious, distracted, and cusp-of-tipping-into-madness that something needs to be said. Looks like I’ve got an “oh shit, I’m...
HOW TO: Overcome stagnancy! Start hiking to Heal.
This is a HOW TO post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. Coming up next:Impromptu LIVE reporting from my trauma hell(plans change.) THEN:The Endless Trauma Loops Series. Every morning I wake up with the sun. I try to become aware of my surroundings and take a...
✭ 1.8 Early Days Rerelease: Visiting home and trauma journey backslides
This podcast episode explores the challenges of managing Complex PTSD during a visit to the childhood home. The host shares personal experiences with anxiety, depression, and addiction recovery, discussing how environmental changes can trigger old patterns. The episode highlights various coping strategies, including mindfulness, exercise, and creative pursuits. It emphasizes the importance of maintaining mental health routines and self-compassion during difficult times, offering listeners insights into the ongoing nature of trauma recovery.
Wisdom and photos from Fred
I really love hearing from you guys. Recently, I got a Newletter reply (which always gets me excited to begin with) full of kind words, hope, and so many beautiful photos of another TMFRs outdoor adventures. With his permission, I had to share. Please take a look at...
The difference between exercising for appearance and exercising for wellness
This is a bonus post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. I’m a master of torture. I can turn any day into an Olympic exercise in self-determination and brutalization. Got work to do? I’ll be at it for 18 hours straight. Trying a new hobby? Chain yourself down...
1.7 “Revert to Draft” | Blog | Trick your Trauma Brain into action
Episode was released, reverted to draft, and re-released at this time for early CPTSD booster. Who’s great at thinking about doing something, getting stressed out, and then guilting themselves for failing to start? For 10 years, it was this guy right here! And a...
My key to Trauma management: Hiking for mental wellness
This is my master post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. I couldn’t speak more highly about the necessity of getting up off your ass and exercising alone in nature to manage your mental illness. I have ZERO doubts about the benefits I feel immediately and...
Complex Trauma; The PTSD we still aren’t talking about in a COVID world
Originally published on Medium. Reposting here for COVID conversations. There’s something on my mind as more and more articles pour out into mainstream media regarding he need for increased mental health professionals to contend with the global Trauma of the COVID-19...
Free Resource Series Pt 3. Stupidly Simple Ways to: Get back on your feet FASTER
You’ve heard it before! It’s week 3 of my free resource/worksheet series aimed at providing STUPIDLY EASY hacks for reducing stagnancy, brightening down days, and returning back to emotional homeostasis. If you’re already a member, head over to the...
✭ 1.3 Early Days Rerelease: Intro to my C-PSTD
This podcast episode revisits an early blog post from the Traumatized Motherfuckers website, offering a raw and vulnerable introduction to the host’s experience with Complex PTSD. It covers personal trauma history, self-critical thoughts, hidden struggles, and coping mechanisms. The host emphasizes the importance of vulnerability in connecting with others who may be experiencing similar challenges. The episode aims to provide listeners with a relatable and honest account of living with and working through trauma.
OVER-exercising for appearance? MF, I’m sprinting towards a trauma response
This is a post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. For a few weeks I’ve been on a really good health streak. I should be proud and screaming my brain hacks from the rooftops, but I have not been. I realized I haven’t wanted to share… because I know how I...
Free Original Resource Pt 2! Stupidly simple ways to: Overcome Stagnancy
A week or so ago, I created a survey for Fuckers inquiring about their biggest struggles during this COVID lock down. Turns out, they’re not to dissimilar from our usual problems – just amplified thanks to the extreme circumstances. Namely, it looks like...
✭ 1.1 Early Days Rerelease: I am the Traumatized Motherfucker
This podcast episode introduces the Traumatized Motherfuckers podcast, discussing the host’s personal journey with Complex PTSD and childhood trauma. It explores the challenges of overcoming self-doubt, fear, and limiting beliefs stemming from traumatic experiences. The host shares insights on building resilience, finding community support, and making positive life changes despite a difficult past. The episode aims to inspire listeners who may be struggling with similar issues, emphasizing the possibility of personal growth and healing.
Toxic workplace fucking with your trauma? For once, I QUIT.
Do you ever wake up feeling immediately upset, angry, or resentful? Maybe the feelings aren’t obvious… but something is wrong. You’re tense. You’re having angry conversations in your head. You’re already hating the day and you haven’t even started yet. You’re weirdly...
1.0 Start Here | Introduction to Traumatized Motherfuckers
Handing you the information you need to understand your brain. The research and reasons for our internal events – our obsession, anxiety, apprehension, ADHD, overwhelm, brain fog, exhaustion, mania, depression, memory failure, relationship destruction, and...
Free Original Resource Pt I: Stupidly simple ways to get active on shut-down days
Hey friends and fuckers! Something new for you today. I’m taking a quick pause on writing to put out a new Free Resource series. (Let’s be honest, I made the resources this weekend and I’m already back to writing. I have a problem.) But. When my conversations with...
A Very Special Guest Writer: Anger, Alcoholism, and Ukraine. A punk finds his happiness.
Got a special one for you today. I honestly can’t believe this surly, stubborn motherfucker wrote for me. Feeling the love and the pandemic boredom all the way from Eastern Europe. How about a tough-love male perspective on trauma recovery to shake things up?...
My most subtle signs of anxiety in Pandemic Land… and how I’m dealing before defeat
Anxiety probably isn’t new for anyone here. If it is… sorry, but glad you’re joining us? When I went on furlough a few weeks ago, I immediately (and I mean immediately) realized something. My job has been absolutely filling me with slow burning, raging anxiety. And...
Lessons from my past; Surviving the quarantine in an abusive home
It’s difficult to hear that so many folks are struggling out there. People are triggered by isolation, and people are triggered by the idea of isolation ending. Physical symptoms of anxiety seem to be increasingly and bringing hypochondria along with them, even in...
Welcome / Git Started Message
Reflecting; One year after leaving an abusive relationship and losing it all
Trigger warning, we got a heavy one. In the past, I’ve told you about my journey with childhood trauma culminating in an abusive romantic relationship which eventually turned into this project. I know it was a necessary transition – bringing me to the...
Friday Feelgood: SHORTAGE of homeless animals
Who likes the idea of unwanted animals waiting in cages for someone to give them a forever home? NO. BODY. On any given day, I think of scared dogs wishing for someone to love them and start crying. That’s not a joke. If I even open an adoptable animal webpage,...
Thanks Trauma; Without “normal expectations” I’m prospering in a pandemic
I ran across this article the other day, “Quarantine doesn’t suck for everyone, apparently,” published April 19th on Mic. And I was a little relieved. I’m not the only one? Thank god. Before going on furlough during this quarantine, sure, I’ve had afternoons of...
Friday Feelgood; Free records for flailing punks
Just a quick one piggybacking off my mild optimism and human sentimentality. In the past, I briefly wrote about Anxious and Angry as a resource – a podcast by Ryan Young from Off With Their Heads, a Midwest punk band from my sour home Chicago that helped/helps me...
COVID lessons: Freeze States, Days without Distractions, & Spare Time Anxiety
I first published the lower portion of this on August 2nd of last year, and I don’t believe it was exactly a slam dunk as far as reader reception at the time. Maybe I was unique in my fear of free time back then, but something tells me it’s more relevant...
COVID Coping: Why is being at home so triggering?
Just a quick one that might put some of your uncomfortable feelings in their rightful place. I have to say, the news about COVID is frightening and the unrest is definitely causing me stress. But it seems like I’m just as triggered sitting around my inside world...
My exercises for opening a “claustrophobic mindset” during COVID-19
I don’t need to comment too much on the issue of physical claustrophobia – I’m sure we’re all feeling it to some degree these days. If you’re residing in a house with multiple family members, my hat is off to you. If you’re living...
The Happiness Lab: The mental health podcast you need right now, corona-edition
House feeling a little silent? Looking for some new information to occupy your brain? If you haven’t heard of The Happiness Lab, I highly recommend it for mental health fanboys. The podcast is lead by a Yale Psychology Professor and always has interesting...
Three ways to combat feeling Corona-Crazy
After my last post and the email I sent out at the beginning of this clusterfuck, I started feeling the pangs of faux superiority. Just in case anyone has been reading with a scoff and thoughts about TBOT – I know I’m not a mental health wizard and I...
Three adjustments to make the most of your shelter-in-place order
Right now there are a million mental health articles about ways to cope with the social isolation and world uncertainty we’re facing… Some of them are fucking terrible. Being mindful isn’t so easy when your News App is blowing up and you’re...
Domestic Abuse, Trauma Responses, and Self-blameshame
Pussy alert. I’ve been doing this Complex Trauma thing for a little while now… and I’ve easily talked about mindset, anxiety & depression, the causes of trauma, a little of my own background, and steps towards recovery. There is a common trauma trend throughout...
Article: How to get out of mental health debt
https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/884xzp/how-to-get-rid-of-debt-you-racked-up-during-a-bad-mental-health-period How to Get Rid of Debt You Racked Up During a Bad Mental Health Period When you finally have the energy to go out and enjoy life, it can be devastating to...
Complex Trauma, Autoimmune Disorders, and Psychosomatic Illness
Lately I can’t escape the fact that young folks all around me are afflicted with the same taxing health problems — acid reflux, insomnia, digestive failure, oral infections, muscle tension, migraines. Over and over again, I hear about the same ailments from friends...
Three EASY lessons learned for managing mental health in 2019
Sometimes… cough… Oftentimes… I have a tendency to write from an abstract, emotional, woo-woo place where psychology, sarcasm, and self-actualization collide. I am a ball of cynical emotion, so the language seems as normal to me as crying into a jar...
Self-shame, mania, and trauma… How my mental health makes this HARD
So… admittedly… I’ve been bad at this sometimes. It’s time to acknowledge the ways I’ve disappointed – if no one else, myself. For about seven months I’ve been chasing after this trauma project with fairly simple goals – I want to inspire people to talk...
Example: Granular Trauma Narrative
No pressure, no pressure… but seriously, have you worked out your trauma narrative? A few months back I found some really insightful research performed at Atlanta’s own Emory University about Trauma Narration as a means to recovery. Now, I’m taking...
Example: Birdseye Trauma Narrative
Hey, I’m back to beating this dead horse. Have you developed your trauma narrative yet? Previously, I wrote about the practice as a useful piece of the trauma journey. Now, I’m encouraging members to share their inspiring tales of trauma domination and...
Confused about healthy relationships? Have some resources
Hey, me too. Not only do I have a penchant for dating my dad and reliving childhood abuse, but I’ve historically been a total idiot when it comes to all healthy attachments, boundaries, and independence in every category of relationship. I’ve both expected...
A Statewide Program for Trauma-Informed Care
I’m from the Midwest. I don’t remember it being a particularly enlightened place to be. But Wisconsin is straight killing it in the Trauma game. Recently, I stumbled upon these government resource pages for creating Trauma Informed public and workplace...
Relationship abuse, sexual trauma, and child suicide – Laura’s Story
Because I believe in the universe, let me give this a little backstory about the world bringing TMFRs together. My mom boards horses for a few folks up in Illinois. A few years ago, she met Laura, who was interested in the horse world. They never wound up doing...
Rhythm of Breathing Affects Memory and Fear – Northwestern University
This one is pretty cool. SO, we’re always being told to breathe deeply and connect through our breath when anxiety runs amok, yeah? I mean, I know it works. I preach that this stupid, woo-woo exercise is a huge anxiety management tool in my life. Hell, I even...
From agoraphobe to drive-aholic; The merit of “worrying” must die
Woo Intro: Skip if you’re not ready for some spiritual pre-ramble. For the past month or so, everything has been hard. Too hard, at times. And when I say “everything,” I mean even the most menial, mundane things have just not been fucking working...
Tales from Early Recovery
Yet ANOTHER old 2019 post, dug out of the trash. I don’t know why I hated this one, except for the formatting. Did you know that I used to be 1) terrified of driving 2) terrified of humans 3) terrified of leaving the house? Legit, I used to be agoraphobic. I...
Timothy’s Tale – Parental Neglect, Isolation, and Moving Forward
Today, I wanted to share a community submission that slipped through the cracks. This perspective comes from Timothy, a member out of Portland who struggles with anxiety, isolation, and depression. I want my fucking life back! I am so tired spending hours on the phone...
Fix your Trauma Mindset, Step Six – Your Inner Critic
Woo boy! Another difficult day here at Traumatized HQ. For me, the end of the month is a nightmare. I have to deal with company inventory, and I want to die. It’s chaotic and tense all morning – and for some reason my coworkers act as though I’M personally...
Fix your Trauma Mindset, Step Five – Give yourself a purpose
You know what sucks? Waking up day after day, seemingly without reason. Feeling trapped in a pointless existence. Trying to pass the time, just to see another miserable, dreadful morning. Wondering why you were brought into this world and how much longer you have to...
Fix your Trauma Mindset, Step Four – Your MFucking Narrative
A lot of motherfuckers have been talking about how overwhelmed they feel writing about their trauma. Totally fair. Besides being unnerved by the ever present potential for triggerings, the information is probably disorganized and confusing. That’s sortof the problem....