by Jess | Oct 31, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
The TMFR Discord community is full of smart, recovery-minded Fuckers. One of the sunniest personalities is HotMessGuru, a single mom with a new leash on life since starting her CPTSD recover ~2 years ago. Listen to her early struggles, narcissistic partner drama, and...
by Jess | Oct 30, 2020 | Blog, Early CPTSD Info, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog
Just having a little brainstorming session today, as I contend with the fact that I just ate half a jar of peanut butter again without realizing it. My thought (after rightfully scorning myself) is… how and why does this happen? Yeah, I know, we have emotional...
by Jess | Oct 28, 2020 | Ask Me Anything, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 03, Podcast, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Hope it’s alright, I threw this into the general podcasting ether a few minutes ago… because, well, I couldn’t download the episode to share it with y’all until I hit “post.” Whoops… I’ll work out the bugs in the...
by Jess | Oct 28, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Member Posts, MF Speaks, MFs Speak!, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Another post today from Community Badass, Doanya! MF’s always spitting serious words for us (with all the dark humor and sarcasm you could dream of). Here, we have a quick article and reflection on something she’s been dealing with like a soldier, settling...
by Jess | Oct 26, 2020 | Archie, Blog, Jess Journals, Public Blog
It’s hard to believe that it’s been three months since I took Archie on as a foster. I mean, it’s baffling that it’s been so long and so short, all at once. It feels like a lifetime and the blink of an eye, somehow. I’ve been too overworked and distracted to keep up...
by Jess | Oct 26, 2020 | Archie, Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog
Ya know, I sort of have a problem with seeing everything through trauma and recovery-tinted glasses in my life. If you let my brain go wild, it’ll decide that EVERYTHING is related to trauma and early life events, somehow. Meet a new person? Start sneakily asking...
by Jess | Oct 22, 2020 | Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Narc Recovery, Patron Season 03, Public Blog, Transcripts
Who has bad taste in romantic partners? I do! No matter how many times I think I’m choosing wisely… uh… I’m not. Plain and simple, I don’t know how to choose a good human for my significant other. Am I a chronic dater? Just taking whatever comes my way? Nope, actually...
by Jess | Oct 21, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful – 4 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Having emotions, processing them, and letting them go has been a relatively new set of skills in my life. Allowing myself to feel has been nothing short of critical to my CPTSD recovery journey. Even though it seems like the worst thing you can possibly do, you must...
by Jess | Oct 21, 2020 | Early CPTSD Info, Git Changing | Advanced, Most Helpful – 4 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Transcripts, Voted Most Helpful
This will be part III of my three part “Emotional” series, with a post and episode release set in two weeks… leaving this here in case anyone needs it now. Love you Fuckers! How One of the most common questions I get is the ole “Trauma-How.”...
by Jess | Oct 19, 2020 | Blog, Education, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Just passing along some information from my current course! (Cognitive and Affective Bases of Behavior) This is a video we had to watch in our Attention module. Below is a “blog” I had to write to demonstrate how this information can be useful in real...
by Jess | Oct 18, 2020 | Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Patron Season 03, Public Blog, Transcripts
It was 2016, I was 26 years old. I had just gone through a major life-shittery period that stretched from 23 to the present year (and would get much worse from there). In this period, I had a mental illness explosion sparked by a non-stop schedule of achievement and...
by Jess | Oct 16, 2020 | Blog, Education, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Patron Season 03, Public Blog, Transcripts, Work and trauma
Alright, so if you’ve been here long you’ve probably heard this story already. When was the last time I had to take a “hiatus?” Oh yeah, like two months ago. Annnnd here we are again. You know I have a fucking problem with NOT working? I...
by Jess | Oct 12, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, Patron Season 03, Public Blog
Let me just take a moment and say… Motherfuckers, I’m tired. I’ve been back in school for a little over a month now, working towards my Masters in Science in Applied Behavior Analysis. No, it’s not that taking one condensed class at a time is too much. No, I’m not one...
by Jess | Oct 11, 2020 | Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Research
Just a blurb worth a share. Sauce: https://www.massgeneral.org/news/press-release/Study-of-more-than-100-modifiable-factors-for-depression-identifies-social-connection-as-the-strongest-protective-factor Researchers from Massachusetts General Hospital (MGH) have...
by Jess | Oct 10, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful – 4 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
More bad news for all the dissociators out there. Turns out that our ability to pay attention and think about feelings is a whole other game from just letting ourselves have them. Where does cognition interact with emotion? How do both influence our behaviors?...
by tmfrscom | Oct 9, 2020 | Git Educated | Intermediate, Subscriber Content
You know, if I’m being honest… and I always am… I’m having a bit of a shit day. Nothing has happened, to be clear. I woke up at my boo’s place, we had an average morning, aside from Archie peeing about 3 feet too early as I carried him out. Sat around while I wrote...
by Jess | Oct 9, 2020 | Anxiety, Attention, Obsession, Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
I have to tell you guys, I’ve been having a rough time in one regard lately. I’m not feeling emotionally-off balance or down and out… but I am feeling very unsettled, pressured, and overly-responsive every day. I’m just a bit agitated. Frustrated. Anxious and...
by Jess | Oct 8, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Just wanted to share a random example of me talking to myself via writing. It’s always an effective way for me to tap into whatever is bothering me so I can move the fuck on. I’ve been feeling flooded with stimulation, information, and expectation to the...
by tmfrscom | Oct 8, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, CPTSD Relationship Downfalls, Git Educated | Intermediate, My Stories, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
So, it’s been a rough relationship past. Now… is it possible to make good decisions? Or am I headed down a narc spiral again?
by tmfrscom | Oct 7, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Subscriber Content
Shoutout to Tina. Posting this as an early release on Patreon, in case it helps.
by Jess | Oct 6, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Hey, quick question… What are emotions? Not “where do they come from in the brain.” We’re all tired of the limbic system at this point. I mean, what are they and why do we have them? Today, I’m talking about the evolutionary derivation of...
by tmfrscom | Oct 6, 2020 | Git Educated | Intermediate, Subscriber Content
So, uh, I guess now that I have patrons in my Patreon, I have to deliver on the extra personal posts, huh? Alright, time to get a bit self-indulgent. Well, I guess that first I just want to say, welcome and thanks for being here! I can’t verbalize how crazy it is...
by Jess | Oct 5, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 3 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Shoutout to Tina. Posting this as an early release on Patreon, in case it helps.
by Jess | Oct 1, 2020 | Blog, Early CPTSD Info, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Hey hey hey… back again to tout other people’s work because I’m too overworked to rewrite it myself. Who has Childhood Emotional Neglect? (Most of us!) Who feels like it’s relevant most of the time? (None of us!) When we’re talking...
