by Jess | Sep 29, 2020 | Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Tools and Resources, Work and trauma
Sauce: https://cptsdfoundation.org/2019/05/27/finding-a-career-despite-living-with-a-disability/ Yo, I’m totally just re-blogging this. I found it on accident and thought it was an extremely useful way to think about your career and the ways it weighs (see what...
by Jess | Sep 28, 2020 | Jess Journals, Public Blog
Okay, here’s a personal one, Motherfuckers. Also, an angry, void-of-any-research one. I’m RANTING this one out to relieve some steam. Sorry (not super sorry) to everyone I’m about to piss off. If you know I’m talking about you… fine, actual,...
by Jess | Sep 28, 2020 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Part TWO of my conversation with my MOM. If you’re not aware, she’s the anxiety-motivated, broken animal loving, workaholic who has incrementally been a role model or emotionally-dismissive monster in my life, depending on the day. Things have always been...
by Jess | Sep 26, 2020 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Part One. If you’ve been listening, you’ve heard about my neurotic, emotionally-averse Mom. I’ve been staying with her for the past 3 months and – for the first time in 20 years – we’ve been spending time together without tearing...
by Jess | Sep 24, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Public Blog, RECOVERY
Hey, you know, I write things sometimes that people really relate to. It’s super neat. Gives me life. Shows that this thing is worthwhile. Recently, I wrote and podcasted my hypothesis on the “Axes of Trauma Recovery” that I’ve seen in my life....
by tmfrscom | Sep 23, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
This is a venting experiment. Airing some dirty, guilty laundry about men, romantic relationships, attraction, and “I’m not interested,” in a way that I think other MFs will understand.
by Jess | Sep 23, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
In the last episode we talked about what defines a narcissist. Today, we’re exploring the addictive highs and lows of the narcissistic cycle of abuse and why C-PTSD sufferers are so easily drawn into the trap. Abusive histories, codependent tendencies, and...
by tmfrscom | Sep 23, 2020 | Git Changing | Advanced, Subscriber Content, Transcripts
More into the podcast game? Sweet, same. Find us wherever you listen. Just search Complex Trauma; We are Traumatized Motherfuckers on your podcast app of choice! An immediate test in “Learning to enjoy letting go of people you love.” You know...
by Jess | Sep 22, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Who’s bad at relationships? Yeeeah, me too. In particular, I hear a lot of us wonder about one personality disorder that underlies all the relationship drama… What’s up with the narcissists that seem to seek and destroy us, anyways? What exactly IS a...
by Jess | Sep 21, 2020 | Blog, Depression, Shame, Rumination, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog
Oh lawd, there’s a topic that I’ve kindof avoided for the past year… I mean, how do you even get started with discussing an aspect of your life that has either been your secret companion or your captive tormentor for the past 30 years? Depression. My history with...
by Jess | Sep 20, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Hey, it’s that time again. Taking a solid look at that life I’ve been creating via anxiety and workaholic tendencies…. and ABA-challenging myself to experiment with redirecting this messy MO towards more functional behaviors. Don’t worry, this...
by Jess | Sep 19, 2020 | Anxiety, Attention, Obsession, Early CPTSD Info, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 03, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
Ever feel like you’re just TOO observative and sensitive? Like your surroundings have an irrationally large effect on your concentration, mood, and emotions? Like you’re strangely stimulated from the inside more often than not? Good news, it’s not...
by Jess | Sep 19, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Today, we’re talking about a new personality trait that I learned from the TMFR Discord community! Are you continually overloaded? Overwhelmed? Overstimulated? You might be an HSP – a High Sensitive Person. Find out if you’re part of the 15-20% of...
by Jess | Sep 17, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Where to begin this conversation? Depression is as inseparable from my life experience as breathing. So, today, I’m looking at the crossover between Complex Trauma and Depression. What are the hallmarks of C-PTSD that lend themselves to clinical depressive...
by Jess | Sep 16, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Interviews, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
My first-ever Motherfucking interview! Today, I’m talking with Marie D’Elephant, host of the Everyone’s Autonomous Podcast and personal Autonomy coach. This human RULES. Marie discusses her past religious trauma, deconversion, and learning how to...
by Jess | Sep 14, 2020 | Patron Season 03, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
Ever heard that generality, “Complex Trauma survivors culture chaos in their lives because it feels normal”? Fuck that, amiright? No way this constant shitshow is my fault. I do NOT want any of this entropy that follows me. Well, Fuckers, today I’m...
by Jess | Sep 12, 2020 | Blog, Public Blog, Transcripts
You know, having this handicapable pup is definitely teaching me a lot. I’m not going to lie and say that everyday is a fucking walk in the park. He can’t even walk, so that makes the metaphor a lot more difficult, for starters. Let me be clear, taking...
by Jess | Sep 10, 2020 | Early CPTSD Info, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 03, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
I’m not a scientist anymore, but some things haven’t faded. Today, I’m laying out my hypothesis that there are three major areas of life that need to be positively changed and maintained for lasting Trauma brain recovery to happen. The massive,...
by Jess | Sep 9, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, RECOVERY
Just leaving this here. My article in The Lily from one year ago! Anxious messes, holler. https://www.thelily.com/long-bouts-of-insomnia-constant-agitation-appetite-dysregulation-this-is-how-i-experience-anxiety/ August 29, 2019 Anxiety Chronicles is a series from The...
by Jess | Sep 6, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the behaviors and relations between my mother and I. Why? Because she’s essentially the only human I’ve seen in months… Also, because in the past 20 years we haven’t been able to stand each other for more than a few hours at a...
by Jess | Sep 6, 2020 | Anxiety, Attention, Obsession, Early CPTSD Info, Patron Season 03, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
Ever feel overwhelmed and shut-down for… well… kind of mundane reasons? Like you’re about to explode if your phone doesn’t stop pinging? You might kill your significant other if they don’t let *that issue* go? You might break down if you...
by Jess | Sep 3, 2020 | Blog, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Transcripts
Sometimes people ask HOW I got any of my shit in order. And let me be clear – I think it’s misguided to ask me – I’m an idiot who just so happened to figure some things out after a lot of trial and error, and enjoys writing too much. That being...
by Jess | Sep 1, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
What is there to say about emotions? In the life of a Traumatized Motherfucker… a whole lot. They’re either here, making their presence known in an overwhelming manner that leaves you debilitated to handle the rest of your personal stressors OR out to sea, floating...
by Jess | Sep 1, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 03, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Recently, there have been some challenging flashbacks and memories in my world. Anniversaries do that to me. One year ago there was a lot going on – from publishing an article in The Lily about life with debilitating anxiety… to finally being permitted to...
by Jess | Sep 1, 2020 | Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Updated: Jun 22, 2022 I was going to write about this “emotional detachment” phenomenon that rules my life… but then I quickly found this article. Eh, fuckit. I’m just going to take a seat and let someone else’s words work for...
