by Jess | Jul 30, 2020 | My Stories, Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
Looking back on those days of trauma-responses and utter misery… sometimes feels more like trying to remember a fever nightmare, rather than recalling the past.
by Jess | Jul 30, 2020 | Blog, Education, Jess Journals, My Stories, Public Blog
You know, besides this project… I do a hellovalot, ya’ll. I hint and I complain about my precrastinating ways of driving myself into the ground, but I don’t always explain the context. Admittedly, I’ve been keeping a big part of this outside...
by Jess | Jul 29, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 02, Seasons, Subscriber Content
What’s harder than living in hell everyday? Finding someone who can help you get out.
by Jess | Jul 29, 2020 | Archie, Blog, Jess Journals, My Stories, Public Blog
Guys… I’m a fucking sucker. Meet my new foster pup, Archie! Archie is a special guy. He has cerebellar hypoplasia, or CH, a genetic disorder that causes him to be uncoordinated. Essentially, his cerebellar – the part of the brain responsible for...
by Jess | Jul 28, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 02, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Spoilers: this episode is re-done in 2021! Check out the newer scripted version, which kicked off the new (shitty) year. When we discuss this C-PTSD thing… what the fuck are we really talking about? What is it? How does it happen? What are the long lasting...
by Jess | Jul 27, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 02, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
“Or am I just sensitive?” It’s hard to know, when our culture has reduced “PTSD” to mean “Soldiers’ disease.” Oh, and your history-denying family? Yeah, they’re not helping either. What is “Trauma,” and...
by Jess | Jul 26, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, My Stories, Public Blog
So, I found my astrology spirit animal this past week. Henceforth, go ahead and call me Chiron, the wounded healer. Or just Jess. Or stick with “Motherfucker.” If you think I’m dumb for talking about astrology, Jess from 2 years ago would thoroughly agree. If you...
by Jess | Jul 25, 2020 | Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
Anyone else have big emotions that shift faster than the wind? One moment I’m floating, the next I’m fucking sinking. External circumstances don’t even have to wreck this ship; I have an explosive boiler room powering this ocean liner. With spiraling...
by Jess | Jul 22, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog
I’ve had a major breakdown in mental health and positive thinking lately. You may have noticed; I’ve been working myself to the bone and complaining about how anxious my mindset has been. Churning out SO MUCH writing all the while. This is frustrating, because it’s...
by Jess | Jul 22, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
Did you know, Traumatized Motherfuckers started as a mental health recovery project called Guinea Living? Before I decided to go the polarizing and dark-humored route of calling everyone a Motherfucker, I was using some cutesy guinea pig art and talking about trauma...
by Jess | Jul 21, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog
Found this in my old posts from my older site version of Traumatized Motherfuckers, circa Spring 2019. The long lost works from my early trauma-writing days. (I wouldn’t be a perfectionist self-sacrificer if I didn’t create things, tell myself they suck,...
by Jess | Jul 21, 2020 | Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
Always waiting for something to change before you can? Convinced that the obstacle is too large – and uncomfortable – to start climbing? Yeah, me too. But rest assured, no one knows what the fuck they’re doing. The inferiority fear and resistance is...
by Jess | Jul 21, 2020 | Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
Revisiting an old post, from May 2020. Tired of painting on a happy face? We all are. For better or for worse, we have all been programmed to keep our heads down and project utter bliss, or at least sufficient satisfaction, to the entire planet. This only equips...
by Jess | Jul 17, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 02, Public Rereleases, Seasons
When you can’t talk about your experiences and subsequent mental illness… you hide it. I spent my life trying to patch the holes with all sorts of disguise; fading into the background, embodying a subservient worker bee, coating my exhausted face with...
by Jess | Jul 15, 2020 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 02, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Compulsive workaholic for the sake of escaping your own life? Holler – lifetime member of the Overdoing It club. All that self-neglect in the name of accomplishing? It makes me lose sight of my complex trauma recovery. This past month of June, I was deep in a...
by Jess | Jul 14, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
Sometimes… I dip my toe into an area that I quickly end up apologizing for. When I mention my spiritual beliefs, I always feel the need to qualify them with a quick disclaimer or a weak,”but what the fuck do I know – you do you.” I’m...
by Jess | Jul 13, 2020 | Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Public Blog
Fred is one of our most prolific sharers in the community. If you haven’t seen his amazing photography and the corresponding post, please go take a gander. I always enjoy his emails about the various adventures he finds living in Portugal, how he realized that...
by tmfrscom | Jul 12, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
July 15th 2020 Am I the only Motherfucker who suffers from chronic brain overwhelm and thought disorganization? It feels like info and events from my life flutter around this brain box like a swirling ticker tape parade. And MF, it really doesn’t take much for...
by tmfrscom | Jul 10, 2020 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
I’m not one of those people who can… enjoy things. What is “fun,” and do other people have it? If I’m having a pleasant experience, my brain wants to end it before it’s “too late.” (i.e. before the world sends shitty...
by tmfrscom | Jul 10, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
I’m one rigid bitch. Maybe not in my beliefs or judgements of others… but shit, I can’t handle my own self. My days? Wake up, work out, werk werk werk until these eyes are ready to BLEED, promise I’m going to do better tomorrow, rinse and repeat. I never...
by Jess | Jul 9, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Most Helpful - 1 Star, Public Blog, Transcripts, Voted Most Helpful
Alright, this might be a controversial/polarizing one. But that’s sortof what I specialize in, yeah? If you didn’t enjoy being called a Motherfucker and pushed with unsettling concepts, it’d be easy enough to close this window. Well, I’m back...
by Jess | Jul 8, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Changing | Advanced, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
An early episode, Summer 2020, redacted for… not being PC or un-trauma biased. And I MF know it. Sometimes our past experiences make us unfairly biased or easily triggered, and apparently I have a lot of bad times with a certain ‘male’ energy.
by tmfrscom | Jul 8, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Repost, Seasons, Subscriber Content
July 10th 2020 Remember that post a few hours ago, “Enjoy saying goodbye to people you love”? How about an immediate update on putting it into practice? Hilarious, universe. I’m here for it. I’m talking real shit that’s happened in my...
by Jess | Jul 8, 2020 | Endless Trauma Loops, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Series
Last time we talked Endless Trauma Loops pt I, I recounted the disappointing discovery that I’ve been living the same trauma-born mistakes for the past 10 years on repeat. I was both so smart – and clearly so fucking dense – to get stuck in the same...
by tmfrscom | Jul 8, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Changing | Advanced, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 01, Repost, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful, Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust
July 8th, 2020 Learn to say goodbye to people you love. “Yeah fucking right?” Fair. But there are times when I can believe it. Relationships have always been the most important part of my life; for worse or for… still worse. You know,...
by Jess | Jul 7, 2020 | Blog, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Tools and Resources
This post is available via podcast! Give it a listen if you don’t need any more time staring at a gotdamn screen. Find it here, or search “Complex Trauma” in your favorite streaming service. Ya know, much of my initial mental health coping and...
by Jess | Jul 5, 2020 | Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, MFs Speak!, Psychosomatic illness, Public Blog
You know what I’m shouting about these days? This new Discord community that we’re running. It’s providing more community and naturally-flowing connection than I ever expected! I’m struggling to keep up with the convos… and shit,...
by Jess | Jul 5, 2020 | Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
Anger has a bad rap. No, we don’t need more angst or outrage in this world… but when your emotions are limited by anxiety, overwhelm, and triggers, a Motherfucker only has so many options. “Finding Peace,” and, “Believing in Bright...
by Jess | Jul 3, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, RECOVERY
I’m not going to sit down and hammer out 4500 words today, I tell myself, as I know that I very well may. Funny, how an intention to do one simple thing completely takes over my day as it transforms into 1) a marathon or 2) the first leg of an ever-growing relay race....
by Jess | Jul 2, 2020 | Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Recently I’ve been doing this fun thing where I trick my friend Daniel into writing for me. He’s more than just a pal – he’s my partner in crime over on the Community server, and my conversational partner in our brand new podcast effort,...
by Jess | Jul 1, 2020 | Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
It’s a marathon episode of back-to-back blog posts, motherfucker! Talking about the mindset of fear and helplessness running the show of your life. What’s stopping you from doing things you know you should? Probably yourself. For me, life gets stunted on...
by Jess | Jul 1, 2020 | MF Speaks, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
A wild update ‘cast from adventures in trauma; off the cuff and sharing a busy week of learning & developments. PLUS – A fellow trauma traveler from across the globe reaches out! Sharing the goosebump-raising voice message sent from an amazing New...
