by Jess | Jun 29, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog
This is another story framed by my morning meditation practice of walking my ass off… but bear with me. For the past almost 4 weeks I’ve been in Illinois at my mom’s little horse farm. To be clear, my time here has been both challenging and healing. So I’ve been...
by Jess | Jun 27, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, My Stories, Public Blog
You know what sucks? Living out of fear. For years, I didn’t do… well… much of anything. Because it was all too terrifying for me to comprehend making a move. Making decisions was nothing short of horrific when I was so ready and willing to imagine the worst-case...
by Jess | Jun 27, 2020 | Blog, Endless Trauma Loops, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog
If you’d rather listen to my words than read them, I can’t blame you…so I’ve been recording my writing into audio for your ease of consumption.This blog post exists as a podcast episode, dontcha know. Check it out if that’s something ya...
by Jess | Jun 26, 2020 | Blog, COVID Coping, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog
This series of posts is about my return to my childhood home… but even if you’re not visiting your childhood home and experiencing all your old triggers, I think we’re going through some similar things right now. Isn’t the “end” of...
by Jess | Jun 25, 2020 | Blog, MFs Speak!, Public Blog
Truthbetold… I stole this entry off the community Discord server. If you haven’t popped over to Discord yet to be introduced, Daniel is one of the moderators who’s giving me one hell of a hand getting the “connection” part of this project...
by tmfrscom | Jun 24, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Changing | Advanced, Git Educated | Intermediate, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Repost, Seasons, Subscriber Content
June 24th 2020 So… for months I’ve been doing well, spitting optimism, and riding highs. But this hasn’t been totally honest with myself. There’s been something bubbling under the surface that I haven’t wanted to deal with. I...
by Jess | Jun 24, 2020 | Endless Trauma Loops, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Series, Voted Most Helpful
For the past 2 years, I’ve had major epiphany moments about my trauma journey and recovery .I’ve made enormous progress in changing my mindset and behaviors to change my life – working towards building one I actually want, instead of one shaped by...
by Jess | Jun 24, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
I’m not proud to admit, I have bad relationships. I get obsessive and anxious. I fall into unhealthy patterns with unhealthy people. And I let them destroy my life from the inside out. Part of this pattern is due to insecure attachments and trauma brain....
by Jess | Jun 23, 2020 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog
I think most of us struggle with being back home. And yet, here I am. Three weeks into chilling in Illinois. It’s literally the longest period of time I’ve spent with my mom in over 10 years – probably more like 15, if we’re considering how...
by Jess | Jun 19, 2020 | Blog, Exercise For Trauma Recovery, Member Posts, MF Speaks, MFs Speak!, Public Blog, Series
This is the FINAL post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. Pre-Ramble I’m not the only one who has something to say about getting out of your indoor prison and changing your life. Far from it. To keep this community-based and inclusive, I wanted to get a...
by Jess | Jun 16, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, My Stories, Public Blog
Continuing with my real-time reporting of life in a triggering place at a triggering time… A few days ago, I came to my “home area” and things are going a bit wild in the transition. Since getting here (the morning after arriving) I’ve been penning new posts that I...
by Jess | Jun 14, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
June 14th, 2020. Who’s back home and losing my trauma recovery footing? This guy! When we left off, I was talking trauma and triggers caused by revisiting my roots. What’s happened since then? Instead of fleeing from my discomfort for the safety of Atlanta…....
by Jess | Jun 12, 2020 | Blog, COVID Coping, Exercise For Trauma Recovery, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog, Series
This is part of the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. This post wasn’t supposed to happen. But I’m so anxious, distracted, and cusp-of-tipping-into-madness that something needs to be said. Looks like I’ve got an “oh shit, I’m...
by Jess | Jun 12, 2020 | Blog, Exercise For Trauma Recovery, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Series
This is a HOW TO post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. Coming up next:Impromptu LIVE reporting from my trauma hell(plans change.) THEN:The Endless Trauma Loops Series. Every morning I wake up with the sun. I try to become aware of my surroundings and take a...
by tmfrscom | Jun 10, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
What happens when you’ve lost it all? You’ve got nothing left to lose, motherfucker. After your worst possible worries come true, it gives you a new perspective on what’s coming next. Or, at least it did in this MF’s case. This is a...
by Jess | Jun 6, 2020 | Most Helpful - 1 Star, My Stories, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
For months I’ve been great (you know, relatively speaking for a Traumatized MF). I’ve been focused, uber productive, healthy, and happy, locked inside my room in Atlanta….. and then I came home to Illinois. Triggers: everywhere. Trauma mindset: ACTIVATED. I’ve...
by Jess | Jun 5, 2020 | Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, MFs Speak!, Public Blog
I really love hearing from you guys. Recently, I got a Newletter reply (which always gets me excited to begin with) full of kind words, hope, and so many beautiful photos of another TMFRs outdoor adventures. With his permission, I had to share. Please take a look at...
by Jess | Jun 3, 2020 | Blog, Exercise For Trauma Recovery, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog, Series
This is a bonus post in the Exercise for Trauma Recovery Series. I’m a master of torture. I can turn any day into an Olympic exercise in self-determination and brutalization. Got work to do? I’ll be at it for 18 hours straight. Trying a new hobby? Chain yourself down...
by Jess | Jun 1, 2020 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Episode was released, reverted to draft, and re-released at this time for early CPTSD booster. Who’s great at thinking about doing something, getting stressed out, and then guilting themselves for failing to start? For 10 years, it was this guy right here! And a...
