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“So Fucking What?” | Narc-Integrity Supplement | Video+Transcript

“So Fucking What?” | Narc-Integrity Supplement | Video+Transcript

So Fucking What Part 1 So Fucking What Part 2 Transcript: Well, hey there fuckers. Happy anniversary. This officially is four years of doing this podcast for me and for some of you four years of tuning in. I also have to say holy shit, that’s insane to...
The Dangers of Intellectualization and Rationalization pt 2 | Video+Transcript

The Dangers of Intellectualization and Rationalization pt 2 | Video+Transcript

We have returned, for personality disorder x defense mechanisms Pt II. The major finding of our last show was… self-defense mechanisms work in a way that we didn’t quite have our finger on before.  Previously, my brain assumed that self-defense was about defending...
The Dangers of Intellectualization and Rationalization pt I | Video+Transcript

The Dangers of Intellectualization and Rationalization pt I | Video+Transcript

Transcript: This is a section that got left out of our last big research episode on Disintegrated, integrity-lacking, narcs.  If you’ve been sitting around, thinking “do I have a fucked up personality organization akin to narcissism or worse?” here are some...
REPOST! Apply It | Repersonalization Pt II – A New Life for Your SELF | Video+Transcript

REPOST! Apply It | Repersonalization Pt II – A New Life for Your SELF | Video+Transcript

May I divert your attention to a video version of this post from SUV living after fleeing my family in 2021. ENJOY THE GROWTH and Cheers Fuckers Transcript: Hey there motherfuckers, it’s Jess. And isn’t this end of the pandemic something? Yeah, I can tell...
REPOST! **Re-ssociate. Re-find Your “Self” and Reclaim Your Life. Pt I | Video+Transcript

REPOST! **Re-ssociate. Re-find Your “Self” and Reclaim Your Life. Pt I | Video+Transcript

I thought this was a good time to revisit some powerful and highly ranked episodes from the past before we transition into talking about defense mechanisms. Let’s go back and recall the lessons learned during depersonalization recovery as we continue talking...
“So Fucking What?” | Narc-Integrity Supplement | Video+Transcript

4.4. Pathological Structuring of Narcissists (Or, No Integrity without Integration)

This podcast episode explores the disorganized personality structuring of narcissists, explaining how their lack of integration affects their behavior and relationships. It discusses different levels of personality organization and how narcissists’ fragmented psyches lead to inconsistent and often manipulative actions. The episode draws parallels between narcissistic behaviors and childlike reactions, offering insights into why narcissists may seem unpredictable or intentionally deceptive. It also touches on the importance of self-integration in developing personal integrity and maintaining healthy relationships.

“So Fucking What?” | Narc-Integrity Supplement | Video+Transcript

Narcs: NO INTEGRITY WITHOUT INTEGRATION pt I | Video+Transcript

Transcript Hey Fuckers! Anyone else had an intense couple of weeks? Between the three jobs I’m working, the family system rearranging out of my favor again, and the eclipse which has kept me from sleeping for the past four nights straight… It’s been a trying...
BONUS Supplement: 3 Theories of self Structure Developed in Narcissistic Upbringings | Transcript

BONUS Supplement: 3 Theories of self Structure Developed in Narcissistic Upbringings | Transcript

References: Di Pierro R, Fanti E. Self-Concept in Narcissism: Profile Comparisons of Narcissistic Manifestations on Facets of the Self. Clin Neuropsychiatry. 2021 Aug;18(4):211-222. doi: 10.36131/cnfioritieditore20210404. PMID: 34909036; PMCID: PMC8650183....
BONUS Supplement: 3 Theories of self Structure Developed in Narcissistic Upbringings | Transcript

BONUS Supplement: 3 Theories of self Structure Developed in Narcissistic Upbringings | Transcript

Yooooo Fuckers!  As long as we’re talking about self and healing these days, I wanted to share with you – the tier that likes to think as deeply as possible about this content for ya damn self – some of the material that I chopped out of the research...
“Feel good about yourself.” For Real. Building self Esteem x Parts Work | Transcript

“Feel good about yourself.” For Real. Building self Esteem x Parts Work | Transcript

Hey, I just wanted to say…. Feel good about yourself and don’t let anyone or anyTHING change that, ever. It’s the answer to all your problems. … … … And YOU just want to say, “Fuck you, dumb bitch, you think I haven’t heard that before? If I could will myself to feel...
self vs. Self | Video+Transcript

self vs. Self | Video+Transcript

Transcript: I thought it would be a good idea to do a little refresher on some concepts that we discuss often, but never can be spoken to enough. Especially as we’re discussing the concept of self, as a component of healing and resiliency. AND, as part of a much...
self vs. Self | Video+Transcript

self vs. Self

In our last paper we heard that “self” isn’t well defined in psychology… then layer in the innate healing capability of the “Self” and we’re all fucked. Let’s discuss “the self” as well as its unearthly...
Comment-Inspired Followup! “Adaptive Narcissism” doesn’t exist & visualizing the spectrum of narcpathology

Comment-Inspired Followup! “Adaptive Narcissism” doesn’t exist & visualizing the spectrum of narcpathology

“Dr. Ramani says there’s no such thing as Healthy Narcissism.” EXACTLY FUCKER! Let’s clear up what’s been throwing some of us off. And let’s visualize this narc discussion as the polarized spectrum it really is, while we’re at...
4.3. Healing with “Adaptive Narcissism” and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing

4.3. Healing with “Adaptive Narcissism” and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing

This podcast episode explores the concept of “adaptive narcissism” and its potential benefits for trauma recovery and psychological resilience. It challenges common perceptions of narcissism, discussing how certain traits associated with grandiose narcissism, such as self-sufficiency and vanity, can be protective against PTSD symptoms. The episode emphasizes the importance of developing a healthy sense of uniqueness and authenticity while avoiding harmful aspects of narcissism like entitlement and exploitativeness.

Comment-Inspired Followup! “Adaptive Narcissism” doesn’t exist & visualizing the spectrum of narcpathology | Transcript

Comment-Inspired Followup! “Adaptive Narcissism” doesn’t exist & visualizing the spectrum of narcpathology | Transcript

So oftentimes in this weird role I find myself in, I also find myself wondering “are my words working?” With such an internal-work-based-position, it can be really hard to know if I’m explaining how things from the outside are connecting with these – here comes...
Transcript+Video | Your Ailing ‘self’ and How to Fix It… with GranAdaptiveNarcissism

Transcript+Video | Your Ailing ‘self’ and How to Fix It… with GranAdaptiveNarcissism

Friends, hello! Announcements in case you’ve missed some recordings or are generally new: Thanks for being here, a part of the recovery community. If you don’t know, I’m some working class motherfucker with a boatload of student loans ala trying to improve my life and...
The Dangers of Intellectualization and Rationalization pt 2

Your Ailing self and How to Fix It… with GranAdaptiveNarcissism

What’s missing in our lives that keeps us from being our most resilient and authentic self? Time to rethink our self-editing lessons of the past. References: Di Pierro R, Fanti E. Self-Concept in Narcissism: Profile Comparisons of Narcissistic Manifestations on...
4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and Guilt

4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and Guilt

This podcast episode explores the complex topic of filial obligation, discussing various philosophical perspectives on children’s duties towards their parents. It examines the relationship between ambivalence, guilt, and caregiver burden in parent-child dynamics. The episode also considers cultural differences in approaching filial piety, including Confucian views on self-realization through familial duty. It addresses the factors that influence the perception and outcomes of filial caregiving, offering listeners insights to navigate these challenging family decisions.

4.1. Making of a Vulnerable Narcissist

4.1. Making of a Vulnerable Narcissist

This podcast episode explores the concept of vulnerable narcissism and its relationship to trauma recovery. It discusses how recovery resources like time, space, and energy can be misused, potentially leading to the development of narcissistic traits. The episode examines the characteristics of vulnerable narcissists, including their tendency towards negative time orientation and manipulative behaviors, and how these traits may stem from unresolved trauma.