by Jess | Oct 24, 2021 | Series, Our Complex Trauma Learnings So Far, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Season 01
Explore the neurological basis of trauma in this informative podcast episode. Learn about the brain’s memory systems, how trauma disrupts neural networks, and the physiological processes behind PTSD symptoms. Gain insights into the cognitive and emotional challenges faced by trauma survivors and understand the foundations of trauma recovery.
by Jess | Oct 24, 2021 | Our Complex Trauma Learnings So Far, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Season 01, Series
Explore the fundamentals of trauma recovery in this introductory podcast episode. Learn about common symptoms of complex trauma, including anxiety, depression, and hypervigilance. Discover how childhood experiences shape mental health and gain insights into coping strategies. This episode sets the stage for a comprehensive series on understanding and healing from trauma.
by Jess | Oct 20, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, MF Speaks, Patron Season 06, Relationship Misc., Seasons
“Sarah’s series of Unfortunate Events” Sarah: Age 24, College Student, Cat Savior, COVID Survivor, Narcissistic Abuse Recoverer, Victim of Grooming, Brave-ass Motherfucker. A disruptive early family life opens the door to predatory...
by Jess | Oct 16, 2021 | Public Blog, Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, RECOVERY
Ya know, it’s been a rough fucking ride for the past 18 months. I’ve slacked on some duties – like updating this blog, for instance – to keep things afloat. Ya know, my inner critic hasn’t let me forget it. But podcast and community-wise,...
by Jess | Oct 13, 2021 | Seasons, Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 06, Subscriber Content
Ever feel like you’re not allowed to be yourself? Like your words aren’t valid? Like your only utility is performing for others? And all the rest is “N/A?”Yeah… So, as you might guess, mental health podcasting got to be a hard effort...
by Jess | Oct 8, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, MF Speaks, MFs Speak!, Patron Season 06, Seasons, Subscriber Content
THANK GOD, this asshole is about to shuttup and hand over the mic. Today, let’s hear from our good friend Cassie, who has endless insight to offer. Let’s dig into her take on gender, sexuality, and finding her identity – or, as she titled the...
by Jess | Oct 1, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Fix Your Trauma Mindset, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 06, Private Blog, Seasons, Transcripts
The blog version of the bonus episode content! In case you like reading more than my voice from the driver’s seat. Getcher bonus content, and get the written version of whatever I’m putting out along with the extra episodes!...
by Jess | Oct 1, 2021 | Bonus Episodes, Fix Your Trauma Mindset, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 06, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Sorry for the switch in plans – sometimes a Motherfucker’s computer breaks, so does the car-house, and everything goes to freck. But here we are, reflecting on how surprisingly calm the day went, nevertheless. No panic attack. No anxiety, anger, agitation....
by Jess | Sep 23, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Brain Patterning, Brain Programming, CPTSD Relationship Downfalls, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 06, Relationship Misc., Seasons
So why are all of your romantic (and otherwise) relationships chronically abusive? Especially when you’re soooo dead set on breaking the chain? Is it as simple as “accepting and perpetrating abuse because mom and dad demonstrated violence?” Today,...
by Jess | Sep 16, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Derealization and Depersonalization, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 06, Seasons, self (with a small s), Subscriber Content
Well, I’m a sucker and I won’t leave you hanging. Everyone gets Part II – take your “self” motivation and do something with it. So we dove down and reconnected with the fact that we’re real, actual, autonomous animals on this planet...
by Jess | Sep 3, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Derealization and Depersonalization, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 06, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Ever wonder where your feelings went? Yeah, well, we all do. But ever wonder if you really exist at all? Intense stress will do that to you, from your emotions to your mental faculties, and finally all the way down to your attachment to your own life. Let’s talk...
by Jess | Aug 27, 2021 | Archie, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Born “different.” Overcoming challenges that “normal” species members don’t even notice. Constantly falling on his face. Flailing. Sometimes, freezing up with overstimulation. But always getting up and trying again. Today, I’m...
by Jess | Aug 11, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, MF Speaks, MF Stories, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
This episode explores the concept of the “trauma self” and its impact on recovery. We delve into how traumatic experiences can create rigid neural patterns that resist change, leading to fixed mindsets and avoidant behaviors. The discussion highlights the importance of recognizing these patterns in ourselves and others, particularly in relationships. By understanding the trauma self, we can begin to challenge our resistance to growth and develop more flexible, adaptive ways of thinking and behaving. While the journey is challenging, awareness and consistent effort can help us move beyond the limitations of our trauma-based neural networks.
by Jess | Jul 16, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Brain Patterning, Brain Programming, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Workbooks
Companion exercises to YOU v. BRAIN series. So you’ve got neural branches and limbs forming diverse networks in your head that control your thoughts and emotions. When your head is a living nightmare… how can you start to understand the neural structures...
by Jess | Jul 14, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Brain Programming, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 3 Stars, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Series, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
In trauma recovery, separating our sense of self from our brain function can be a powerful tool. This episode explores the concept that we are not our brains, bodies, experiences, emotions, or thoughts. By challenging societal narratives about the brain and consciousness, we can reframe our self-perception and reduce shame associated with trauma responses. Understanding the limitations of current scientific knowledge about consciousness helps us approach our healing journey with more self-compassion. This perspective shift can alleviate some of the emotional distress and self-judgment that often accompany trauma, allowing for a more balanced approach to recovery.
by Jess | Jun 20, 2021 | Git Changing | Advanced, Bonus Episodes, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Hey, want to hear me realizing the “lost cause” of my toxic relationship? You know, the one that changed my life and started a MF trauma community. Also, the one that’s creepily like living with my mother? Mhmm… it’s a lot of our recent talks,...
by Jess | Jun 9, 2021 | Blog, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, DID, Parts, Fragmentation, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Transcripts
Want to listen to this? Check the Podcast! Thirsty for more details on your brain mechanisms? I’ve gottem. Check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to get the full, hour long version of the article, podcasted for your ease of consumption. And get ALL the full...
by Jess | Jun 4, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Ask Me Anything, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 05, Podcast, Seasons
It’s a long story, starting with ABA, moving through parts theory, and ending at “holy fuck, my whole life has been shaped by covert abuse.” So how’s your springtime been?
by Jess | Jun 2, 2021 | Blog, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, DID, Parts, Fragmentation, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Transcripts
Ready to rethink how you think about your trauma life? Because this is just the bite-sized summary of a much longer issue. Check the Podcast to listen to this mini-serving. Then check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to get the hour-long version of the FULL...
by Jess | Jun 2, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Subscriber Content
This is the summary version of the full-length episode! So we’ve talked endlessly about HOW neural networks (fragmented personalities) develop through trauma on a biological basis. Today, we’re talking about how that looks from the outside, per Healing the...
by Jess | May 28, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Git Educated | Intermediate
Hey errone! Seeing some comments that I’ve been AWOL on. Uh, sorry, I’ve been living in bed popping ibuprofen, speaking to no one, and waiting for the sweet relief of death… So… 1) love seeing your feedback on the fragmented personalities...
by Jess | May 27, 2021 | Blog, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, Brain Operations, DID, Parts, Fragmentation, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 05, Private Blog, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Transcripts
Ready to rethink how you think about your trauma life? Because this is just the bite-sized summary of a much longer issue. Check the Podcast to listen to this mini-serving. Then check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to get the hour-long version of the FULL...
by Jess | May 26, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Brain Operations, DID, Parts, Fragmentation, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful – 4 Stars, Patron Season 05, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
This episode explores the concept of fragmented personalities in trauma survivors from a neurobiological perspective. Drawing on Janina Fisher’s work, it explains how neural networks form different personality parts as adaptive responses to trauma. The discussion covers survival responses, the development of a “get shit done” personality, and how understanding these mechanisms can reduce self-blame and shame. This framework offers a new way to interpret seemingly contradictory behaviors and emotions in trauma survivors, potentially aiding in recovery and self-compassion.
by Jess | May 22, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 05, Seasons
So everything changed in the past month. In the aftermath, we’re feeling a bit wild, huh? Up, down, obsessed, depressed, overloaded, anxious, excited, and dreadful. What’s going on with the internal chaos, and what can we do to reintegrate our ideas of...
by Jess | May 21, 2021 | Blog, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, Education, Jess Journals, Public Blog, Transcripts
Ready to rethink how you think about your trauma life? Because this is just the bite-sized summary of a much longer issue. Check the Podcast to listen to this mini-serving. Then check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to get the hour-long version of the FULL...
by Jess | May 14, 2021 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
Looking a bit long for the casual read? Yeah, this is the transcript to a whole podcast… and I’m thorough. Luckily, this full episode is available wherever you podcast! Be sure to check it out, and take a dive into the 100 free trauma recovery episodes...
by Jess | May 12, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Why do so many of our parents have the same unfortunate covert abuse tactics in their front pocket? Why did we grow up with an unhealthy narrative about self-worth and self-accountability? Where did all this narcissistic energy come from, originally? Well, I was going...
by Jess | May 5, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
Last time we learned about a new type of Narc; the “Covert” variety… who sound an awful lot like our mothers, collectively. So what happens if you WERE raised by a Narcissist mom, in particular? What are the common characteristics of the relationship? What...
by Jess | May 4, 2021 | Blog, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Tools and Resources, Transcripts
Ready to rethink how you think about your trauma life? Because this is just the bite-sized summary of a much longer issue. Check the Podcast to listen to this mini-serving. Then check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to get the hour-long version of the FULL...
by Jess | May 4, 2021 | Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Narc Recovery, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Tools and Resources, Transcripts
Looking a bit long for the casual read? Yeah, this is the transcript to a whole podcast… and I’m thorough. Luckily, this full episode is available wherever you podcast! Be sure to check it out, and take a dive into the 100 free trauma recovery episodes...
by Jess | May 2, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Git Educated | Intermediate, Narc Recovery
So, there’s nothing like getting out nice and early for a long job/hike to shake connections out of your head. Finally getting up and out by 7am again, and feeling great. This morning, my brain was consumed by: vividly dreaming of a lost love 8 years ago,...
by Jess | May 1, 2021 | Blog, Education, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
Just a shameless repost. This article seems important to share, because so many of us don’t understand what a “healthy” relationship looks like. (You know, self included until VERY recently. And that has been a years’ long process of learning.)...
by Jess | Apr 30, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Quick takes from the full episode, ready to consume in one sitting. Have you been convinced that everything about you was “wrong?” Does someone in your life make you feel… “off,” in a way that’s anxious, fearful, defeated, and...
by Jess | Apr 29, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful – 4 Stars, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
This episode explores the concept of covert narcissism, a less recognized but equally damaging form of narcissistic personality disorder. It delves into the characteristics of vulnerable narcissists, the signs of being in a relationship with one, and the psychological impact on their victims. The discussion emphasizes the importance of recognizing subtle manipulation tactics and trusting one’s bodily responses to potentially toxic relationships. While not diagnostic, this information can help individuals better understand their experiences and seek appropriate support in trauma recovery.
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by Jess | Apr 25, 2021 | Blog, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, Git Changing | Advanced, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Subscriber Content, Transcripts
Ready to rethink how you think about your trauma life? Because this is just the bite-sized summary of a much longer issue. Check the Podcast to listen to this mini-serving. Then check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to get the hour-long version of the FULL...
by Jess | Apr 25, 2021 | Blog, CPTSD Relationship Downfalls, Git Changing | Advanced, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Private Blog, Transcripts
Looking a bit long for the casual read? Yeah, this is the transcript to a whole podcast… and I’m thorough. Luckily, this full episode is available wherever you podcast! Be sure to check it out, and take a dive into the 100 free trauma recovery episodes...
by Jess | Apr 23, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Bite Sized Patreon Posts, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content
Back with a quick, consumable rundown of the full episode on Abuse Stigma. For the complete recording… uh… click again. You’ve probably realized, abuse is a dirty topic not to happily discussed in the public sphere. Victims are blamed. Cases are dismissed....
by Jess | Apr 22, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
You’ve probably realized, abuse is a dirty topic not to happily discussed in the public sphere. Victims are blamed. Cases are dismissed. And perpetrators are enabled. But what’s the point of our ignorance towards domestic abuse? Is there a reason why we...
by Jess | Apr 19, 2021 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, MF Speaks, MF Stories, MFs Speak!, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Series, Subscriber Content
Taking advantage of an amazing MF who shared her story with me last week. Today, Monica proves her Motherfuckerdom by sharing her tales of growing up with two unhealthy parents, what she’s learned since separating herself, and moving forward in her (is this...
by Jess | Apr 13, 2021 | Public Blog, Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Narc Recovery, Public Content, RECOVERY, Seasons, Transcripts
Looking a bit long for the casual read? Yeah, this is the transcript to a whole podcast… and I’m thorough. Luckily, this full episode is available wherever you podcast! Be sure to check it out, and take a dive into the 100 free trauma recovery episodes...
by Jess | Apr 12, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
So that last episode was an unexpected doozy, huh? (Still mortified.) Well, I’m back in Illinois and ready to clear the air with some actual LESSONS from this mess. In the past two weeks, here’s where I’ve been, what I’ve realized, and what my...
by Jess | Apr 10, 2021 | Blog, Jess Journals, Public Blog, Tools and Resources
You know, I actually talk up punk on the show for a reason besides my own lifelong interest. I think it can be a tool. Hear me out. It’s not a coincidence that so many punks are CPTSD roadies. Punk is full of connective lyrics about hard times. It features a mix...
by Jess | Apr 10, 2021 | Blog, Education, Public Blog, RECOVERY, Tools and Resources
Today I’m talking about two things, inspired by the AMAs from March. You’ll notice that they’re seemingly separate issues… but, actually, they’re built on the same neurological problem… with a similar new-connection-forming remedy....
by Jess | Apr 9, 2021 | Blog, Education, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Public Blog
People with BPD often experience intense attachment to a single person: they determine our mood, our identity, and our self-worth. They are called our Favourite Person. I remember my first favorite person. She played the part of Dorothy, in a local Little Theatre...
by Jess | Apr 5, 2021 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Subscriber Content, Voted Most Helpful
TRIGGER WARNING: emotional abuse, suicidal ideation, and self-harm. Childhood abuse can come with a lot of overt violence and aggression… or it might be more subtle than that. Years after tackling the obvious trauma, it might be a bit crisis inducing to realize...
by Jess | Apr 2, 2021 | Subscriber Content, Ask Me Anything, Git Changing | Advanced, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 04, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
It’s the Ask Me Anything results from March – talking about the specifics of changing your trauma-born core beliefs and behaviors with a neuroscience background approach. Understand what you’re trying to accomplish, reach your goal more efficiently....
by Jess | Mar 25, 2021 | Blog, DID, Parts, Fragmentation, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
You know those times when you can’t escape a particular person, place, thing, or idea? Everywhere you go, you hear about a certain F-list celebrity, you see a travel destination all over social media out of nowhere, you can’t avoid the whatever-doodle of the week when...
by Jess | Mar 21, 2021 | Blog, CPTSD Relationship Downfalls, DID, Parts, Fragmentation, Public Blog, Research, Transcripts
Hey Fuckers, jumping in for one quick correction. I’ll be honest. I recorded this, listened to it, and realized that my haphazardly thrown together final topic at the end is excluding something important. I’m not re-recording this thing, because I don’t have that kind...
