by Jess | Jul 30, 2020 | My Stories, Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
This podcast episode explores the challenges of remembering and processing traumatic experiences during recovery. The host compares trauma states to fever dreams, discussing the difficulty in recalling exact details and emotions from periods of intense struggle. The episode highlights the physical and emotional symptoms of trauma and describes the gradual process of healing. It offers encouragement to those still experiencing trauma symptoms and emphasizes the possibility of recovery with proper support and therapy.
by Jess | Jul 30, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Education, Jess Journals, My Stories
You know, besides this project… I do a hellovalot, ya’ll. I hint and I complain about my precrastinating ways of driving myself into the ground, but I don’t always explain the context. Admittedly, I’ve been keeping a big part of this outside...
by Jess | Jul 29, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 02, Seasons
What’s harder than living in hell everyday? Finding someone who can help you get out.
by Jess | Jul 29, 2020 | Public Blog, Archie, Blog, Jess Journals, My Stories
Guys… I’m a fucking sucker. Meet my new foster pup, Archie! Archie is a special guy. He has cerebellar hypoplasia, or CH, a genetic disorder that causes him to be uncoordinated. Essentially, his cerebellar – the part of the brain responsible for...
by Jess | Jul 28, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 02, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
Spoilers: this episode is re-done in 2021! Check out the newer scripted version, which kicked off the new (shitty) year. When we discuss this C-PTSD thing… what the fuck are we really talking about? What is it? How does it happen? What are the long lasting...
by Jess | Jul 27, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 02, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
“Or am I just sensitive?” It’s hard to know, when our culture has reduced “PTSD” to mean “Soldiers’ disease.” Oh, and your history-denying family? Yeah, they’re not helping either. What is “Trauma,” and...
by Jess | Jul 26, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Jess Journals, My Stories
So, I found my astrology spirit animal this past week. Henceforth, go ahead and call me Chiron, the wounded healer. Or just Jess. Or stick with “Motherfucker.” If you think I’m dumb for talking about astrology, Jess from 2 years ago would thoroughly agree. If you...
by Jess | Jul 25, 2020 | Most Helpful - 2 Stars, Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
This podcast episode explores the challenges of emotional instability in trauma recovery. The host shares personal experiences with rapid mood shifts, discussing how past trauma can affect current emotional regulation. The episode delves into the relativity of emotional experiences, the impact of negative self-talk, and the difficulties in communicating these experiences to others. It offers insights into the complexities of managing emotions for those with trauma backgrounds and encourages listeners to be patient with themselves in their healing journey.
by Jess | Jul 22, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, My Stories, Public Blog
I’ve had a major breakdown in mental health and positive thinking lately. You may have noticed; I’ve been working myself to the bone and complaining about how anxious my mindset has been. Churning out SO MUCH writing all the while. This is frustrating, because it’s...
by Jess | Jul 22, 2020 | Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Public Blog, Transcripts
Did you know, Traumatized Motherfuckers started as a mental health recovery project called Guinea Living? Before I decided to go the polarizing and dark-humored route of calling everyone a Motherfucker, I was using some cutesy guinea pig art and talking about trauma...
by Jess | Jul 21, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma
Found this in my old posts from my older site version of Traumatized Motherfuckers, circa Spring 2019. The long lost works from my early trauma-writing days. (I wouldn’t be a perfectionist self-sacrificer if I didn’t create things, tell myself they suck,...
by Jess | Jul 21, 2020 | Seasons, Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases
This podcast episode explores the mental obstacles faced by individuals recovering from trauma and how to overcome them. The host shares personal experiences with self-doubt, perfectionism, and fear of failure, discussing how these challenges can hinder personal growth and recovery. The episode emphasizes the importance of starting new habits despite discomfort, learning from failures, and breaking negative thought patterns. Listeners are encouraged to embrace imperfection and persevere through initial difficulties in their recovery journey.
by Jess | Jul 21, 2020 | Seasons, Patron Season 02, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases
This podcast episode explores the societal pressure to appear “fine” and its impact on mental health and personal connections. The host shares a past blog post discussing the isolating effects of constantly projecting happiness and the importance of recognizing shared human experiences. The episode encourages listeners to challenge self-defeating thought patterns and embrace emotional honesty in relationships. It emphasizes that mental health struggles are common and that vulnerability can lead to more authentic connections.
by Jess | Jul 17, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 02, Public Rereleases, Seasons
This podcast episode explores the concept of “masking” in trauma recovery, discussing how individuals often hide their true selves and struggles behind a facade of normalcy. The host shares personal experiences with developing and maintaining masks, from childhood through adulthood, and the impact this has had on relationships and self-perception. The episode also touches on the process of gradually removing these masks and the positive effects of embracing vulnerability and authenticity in recovery.
by Jess | Jul 15, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 02, Seasons
Compulsive workaholic for the sake of escaping your own life? Holler – lifetime member of the Overdoing It club. All that self-neglect in the name of accomplishing? It makes me lose sight of my complex trauma recovery. This past month of June, I was deep in a...
by Jess | Jul 14, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Transcripts
Sometimes… I dip my toe into an area that I quickly end up apologizing for. When I mention my spiritual beliefs, I always feel the need to qualify them with a quick disclaimer or a weak,”but what the fuck do I know – you do you.” I’m...
by Jess | Jul 13, 2020 | Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Public Blog
Fred is one of our most prolific sharers in the community. If you haven’t seen his amazing photography and the corresponding post, please go take a gander. I always enjoy his emails about the various adventures he finds living in Portugal, how he realized that...
by tmfrscom | Jul 12, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons
July 15th 2020 Am I the only Motherfucker who suffers from chronic brain overwhelm and thought disorganization? It feels like info and events from my life flutter around this brain box like a swirling ticker tape parade. And MF, it really doesn’t take much for...
by tmfrscom | Jul 10, 2020 | Bonus Episodes, Git Changing | Advanced, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
I’m not one of those people who can… enjoy things. What is “fun,” and do other people have it? If I’m having a pleasant experience, my brain wants to end it before it’s “too late.” (i.e. before the world sends shitty...
by tmfrscom | Jul 10, 2020 | Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons, Subscriber Content
I’m one rigid bitch. Maybe not in my beliefs or judgements of others… but shit, I can’t handle my own self. My days? Wake up, work out, werk werk werk until these eyes are ready to BLEED, promise I’m going to do better tomorrow, rinse and repeat. I never...
by Jess | Jul 9, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Jess Journals, LIVING with Complex Trauma, Most Helpful - 1 Star, Relationship Misc., Transcripts, Voted Most Helpful
Alright, this might be a controversial/polarizing one. But that’s sortof what I specialize in, yeah? If you didn’t enjoy being called a Motherfucker and pushed with unsettling concepts, it’d be easy enough to close this window. Well, I’m back...
by Jess | Jul 8, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Changing | Advanced, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Seasons
An early episode, Summer 2020, redacted for… not being PC or un-trauma biased. And I MF know it. Sometimes our past experiences make us unfairly biased or easily triggered, and apparently I have a lot of bad times with a certain ‘male’ energy.
by tmfrscom | Jul 8, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Educated | Intermediate, Patron Season 01, Relationship Misc., Repost, Seasons
July 10th 2020 Remember that post a few hours ago, “Enjoy saying goodbye to people you love”? How about an immediate update on putting it into practice? Hilarious, universe. I’m here for it. I’m talking real shit that’s happened in my...
by Jess | Jul 8, 2020 | Series, Endless Trauma Loops, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases
This podcast episode explores the concept of “trauma loops” – repetitive patterns of behavior stemming from past traumatic experiences. The host discusses personal examples of these loops, including cycles of stagnancy and overwork, problematic relationships, escapist tendencies, and health obsessions. The episode also touches on positive patterns that can emerge from self-reflection and offers insights into breaking these cycles. The discussion aims to help listeners recognize similar patterns in their own lives and consider strategies for overcoming them.
by tmfrscom | Jul 8, 2020 | Subscriber Content, Audio Podcasts | Subscribers, Git Changing | Advanced, Git Educated | Intermediate, Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 01, Repost, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful, Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust
July 8th, 2020 Learn to say goodbye to people you love. “Yeah fucking right?” Fair. But there are times when I can believe it. Relationships have always been the most important part of my life; for worse or for… still worse. You know,...
by Jess | Jul 7, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, RECOVERY, Tools and Resources
This post is available via podcast! Give it a listen if you don’t need any more time staring at a gotdamn screen. Find it here, or search “Complex Trauma” in your favorite streaming service. Ya know, much of my initial mental health coping and...
by Jess | Jul 5, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, MFs Speak!, Psychosomatic illness
You know what I’m shouting about these days? This new Discord community that we’re running. It’s providing more community and naturally-flowing connection than I ever expected! I’m struggling to keep up with the convos… and shit,...
by Jess | Jul 5, 2020 | Seasons, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases
This podcast episode explores the unconventional use of anger as a motivational tool in trauma recovery. The host discusses how accessing anger can provide energy and determination when other positive emotions feel out of reach. Drawing from personal experiences and punk rock influences, the episode offers insights into channeling difficult emotions constructively. The discussion also touches on the importance of eventually moving beyond anger towards forgiveness and healing.
by Jess | Jul 3, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, LIVING with Complex Trauma, RECOVERY
I’m not going to sit down and hammer out 4500 words today, I tell myself, as I know that I very well may. Funny, how an intention to do one simple thing completely takes over my day as it transforms into 1) a marathon or 2) the first leg of an ever-growing relay race....
by Jess | Jul 2, 2020 | Public Blog, Blog, Member Posts, MF Speaks, Tools and Resources
Recently I’ve been doing this fun thing where I trick my friend Daniel into writing for me. He’s more than just a pal – he’s my partner in crime over on the Community server, and my conversational partner in our brand new podcast effort,...
by Jess | Jul 1, 2020 | Most Helpful - 1 Star, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons, Voted Most Helpful
This podcast episode explores the impact of fear, helplessness, and excessive worrying on individuals with complex trauma. The host shares personal experiences with driving anxiety and agoraphobia, discussing how these issues developed and were eventually overcome. The episode offers insights into the nature of worry, its roots in trauma, and practical strategies to challenge and reduce anxious thought patterns. Listeners are encouraged to focus on present realities rather than imagined future scenarios and to build self-trust through action.
by Jess | Jul 1, 2020 | MF Speaks, Patron Season 01, Public Content, Public Podcast, Public Rereleases, Seasons
This podcast episode explores the host’s recent experiences with trauma recovery, including the challenges of returning to their hometown and the importance of maintaining positive routines and mindset. The host discusses how consuming uplifting content and maintaining a consistent self-care routine has positively impacted their mental health and perspective. They also share a personal breakthrough in discussing generational trauma with their mother and reflect on the growth of their supportive online community for trauma survivors.
