It’s not “okay,” but apparently I have Gender Triggers
Okay, here’s a personal one, Motherfuckers. Also, an angry, void-of-any-research one. I’m RANTING this one out to relieve some steam. Sorry (not super sorry) to everyone I’m about to piss off. If you know I’m talking about you… fine, actual,...
3.18 BONUS Conversation | My MOM! Part 2
Part TWO of my conversation with my MOM. If you’re not aware, she’s the anxiety-motivated, broken animal loving, workaholic who has incrementally been a role model or emotionally-dismissive monster in my life, depending on the day. Things have always been...
3.17 BONUS Conversation | My MOM! Part 1
Part One. If you’ve been listening, you’ve heard about my neurotic, emotionally-averse Mom. I’ve been staying with her for the past 3 months and – for the first time in 20 years – we’ve been spending time together without tearing...
Member Follow-up! Axes of Trauma Recovery
Hey, you know, I write things sometimes that people really relate to. It’s super neat. Gives me life. Shows that this thing is worthwhile. Recently, I wrote and podcasted my hypothesis on the “Axes of Trauma Recovery” that I’ve seen in my life....
3.16 Dismissed Boundaries
This is a venting experiment. Airing some dirty, guilty laundry about men, romantic relationships, attraction, and “I’m not interested,” in a way that I think other MFs will understand.
✭✭ 3.15 Narcissistic Cycle of Abuse
In the last episode we talked about what defines a narcissist. Today, we’re exploring the addictive highs and lows of the narcissistic cycle of abuse and why C-PTSD sufferers are so easily drawn into the trap. Abusive histories, codependent tendencies, and...
Dismissed Boundaries, the Post
More into the podcast game? Sweet, same. Find us wherever you listen. Just search Complex Trauma; We are Traumatized Motherfuckers on your podcast app of choice! An immediate test in “Learning to enjoy letting go of people you love.” You know...
3.14 Narcissists, Defined.
Who’s bad at relationships? Yeeeah, me too. In particular, I hear a lot of us wonder about one personality disorder that underlies all the relationship drama… What’s up with the narcissists that seem to seek and destroy us, anyways? What exactly IS a...
Where Depression and CPTSD collide, we reside.
Oh lawd, there’s a topic that I’ve kindof avoided for the past year… I mean, how do you even get started with discussing an aspect of your life that has either been your secret companion or your captive tormentor for the past 30 years? Depression. My history with...
3.13 A Workaholic Experiment in Applied Behavior Analysis
Hey, it’s that time again. Taking a solid look at that life I’ve been creating via anxiety and workaholic tendencies…. and ABA-challenging myself to experiment with redirecting this messy MO towards more functional behaviors. Don’t worry, this...
✭✭ 3.12 Early Days Rerelease: Over-stimulation, Hypersensitivity, and Trauma
Explore the connection between trauma and overstimulation in this podcast episode. Learn about the physiological basis of hypervigilance, how childhood trauma affects sensory processing, and strategies for managing environmental and internal stimuli. Discover insights into why trauma survivors may struggle with concentration and emotional regulation in everyday situations.
✭✭ 3.11 Highly Sensitive People; the personality trait
Today, we’re talking about a new personality trait that I learned from the TMFR Discord community! Are you continually overloaded? Overwhelmed? Overstimulated? You might be an HSP – a High Sensitive Person. Find out if you’re part of the 15-20% of...
✭✭ 3.10 Depression, Evolution, and Survival
Where to begin this conversation? Depression is as inseparable from my life experience as breathing. So, today, I’m looking at the crossover between Complex Trauma and Depression. What are the hallmarks of C-PTSD that lend themselves to clinical depressive...
3.9 Interview | Marie D’Elephant of Everyone’s Autonomous
My first-ever Motherfucking interview! Today, I’m talking with Marie D’Elephant, host of the Everyone’s Autonomous Podcast and personal Autonomy coach. This human RULES. Marie discusses her past religious trauma, deconversion, and learning how to...
3.8 Early Days Rerelease: Comfort in Chaos
Explore the complex relationship between trauma survivors and chaos. This podcast episode discusses how individuals with complex trauma may find comfort in chaotic environments and examines the physiological responses to stress. Learn about the impact of external chaos on family dynamics and personal growth, and discover insights into adapting to challenging situations.
Distress Intolerance and Perseverant Thinking
You know, having this handicapable pup is definitely teaching me a lot. I’m not going to lie and say that everyday is a fucking walk in the park. He can’t even walk, so that makes the metaphor a lot more difficult, for starters. Let me be clear, taking...
✭✭ 3.7 Early Days Rerelease: Axes of PTSD Management
Explore the three-pronged axis for trauma life recovery, focusing on environment, inner landscape, and behaviors. This podcast episode discusses how these components work together to support long-term healing from complex trauma. Learn about the challenges of maintaining progress when only one or two aspects are addressed, and discover insights into creating a more holistic approach to trauma recovery.
My article in “The Anxiety Chronicles” by The Lily
Just leaving this here. My article in The Lily from one year ago! Anxious messes, holler. https://www.thelily.com/long-bouts-of-insomnia-constant-agitation-appetite-dysregulation-this-is-how-i-experience-anxiety/ August 29, 2019 Anxiety Chronicles is a series from The...
Comfort in Chaos
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the behaviors and relations between my mother and I. Why? Because she’s essentially the only human I’ve seen in months… Also, because in the past 20 years we haven’t been able to stand each other for more than a few hours at a...
3.6 Early Days Rerelease: Distress Intolerance and Perseverant Thinking
xplore the concept of distress intolerance and its connection to perseverant thinking in trauma recovery. This podcast episode discusses the challenges of managing overwhelming emotional responses and offers practical strategies for breaking negative thought patterns. Learn how to recognize and address distress intolerance in daily life, and discover techniques for building resilience after trauma.
Three-pronged Axis for Trauma Life Recovery
Sometimes people ask HOW I got any of my shit in order. And let me be clear – I think it’s misguided to ask me – I’m an idiot who just so happened to figure some things out after a lot of trial and error, and enjoys writing too much. That being...
My emotional “Switch.” Trauma, Dissociation, Emotional Numbing
What is there to say about emotions? In the life of a Traumatized Motherfucker… a whole lot. They’re either here, making their presence known in an overwhelming manner that leaves you debilitated to handle the rest of your personal stressors OR out to sea, floating...
3.5 The Anxiety Chronicles 2019
Recently, there have been some challenging flashbacks and memories in my world. Anniversaries do that to me. One year ago there was a lot going on – from publishing an article in The Lily about life with debilitating anxiety… to finally being permitted to...