


Two brains: Anti-self behaviors
Just having a little brainstorming session today, as I contend with the fact that I just ate half a jar of peanut butter again without realizing it. My thought (after rightfully scorning myself) is… how and why does this happen? Yeah, I know, we have emotional...
3.24 October AMA!
Hope it’s alright, I threw this into the general podcasting ether a few minutes ago… because, well, I couldn’t download the episode to share it with y’all until I hit “post.” Whoops… I’ll work out the bugs in the...
Member Post: Family Estrangement
Another post today from Community Badass, Doanya! MF’s always spitting serious words for us (with all the dark humor and sarcasm you could dream of). Here, we have a quick article and reflection on something she’s been dealing with like a soldier, settling...
Archie’s three month progress report
It’s hard to believe that it’s been three months since I took Archie on as a foster. I mean, it’s baffling that it’s been so long and so short, all at once. It feels like a lifetime and the blink of an eye, somehow. I’ve been too overworked and distracted to keep up...
CPTSD AAAM; Archie As A Metaphor
Ya know, I sort of have a problem with seeing everything through trauma and recovery-tinted glasses in my life. If you let my brain go wild, it’ll decide that EVERYTHING is related to trauma and early life events, somehow. Meet a new person? Start sneakily asking...
The cycle of narcissistic abuse and C-PTSD
Who has bad taste in romantic partners? I do! No matter how many times I think I’m choosing wisely… uh… I’m not. Plain and simple, I don’t know how to choose a good human for my significant other. Am I a chronic dater? Just taking whatever comes my way? Nope, actually...
✭✭✭✭ 3.23 How to deal with Emotions
This episode explores practical techniques for dealing with difficult emotions in trauma recovery. The host shares personal experiences and strategies, emphasizing the importance of mindfulness, journaling, nature therapy, and self-compassion. Key topics include recognizing dissociation, allowing oneself to feel emotions without judgment, and developing self-awareness. The discussion provides a balanced approach to emotional regulation, acknowledging the challenges while offering actionable steps for healing and personal growth.

✭✭✭✭ Early release: HOW to deal with emotions
This episode explores practical techniques for dealing with difficult emotions in trauma recovery. The host shares personal experiences and strategies, emphasizing the importance of mindfulness, journaling, nature therapy, and self-compassion. Key topics include recognizing dissociation, allowing oneself to feel emotions without judgment, and developing self-awareness. The discussion provides a balanced approach to emotional regulation, acknowledging the challenges while offering actionable steps for healing and personal growth.

Video: Our hidden brains with David Eagleman
Just passing along some information from my current course! (Cognitive and Affective Bases of Behavior) This is a video we had to watch in our Attention module. Below is a “blog” I had to write to demonstrate how this information can be useful in real...
Narcissists. AKA – Defining “dating my father”
It was 2016, I was 26 years old. I had just gone through a major life-shittery period that stretched from 23 to the present year (and would get much worse from there). In this period, I had a mental illness explosion sparked by a non-stop schedule of achievement and...
An Experiment in Workaholism; Behavior Analysis & CPTSD
Alright, so if you’ve been here long you’ve probably heard this story already. When was the last time I had to take a “hiatus?” Oh yeah, like two months ago. Annnnd here we are again. You know I have a fucking problem with NOT working? I...
ABA and Trauma; Imposter Syndrome erupts
Let me just take a moment and say… Motherfuckers, I’m tired. I’ve been back in school for a little over a month now, working towards my Masters in Science in Applied Behavior Analysis. No, it’s not that taking one condensed class at a time is too much. No, I’m not one...
Social connection is the strongest protective factor for depression
Just a blurb worth a share. Sauce: https://www.massgeneral.org/news/press-release/Study-of-more-than-100-modifiable-factors-for-depression-identifies-social-connection-as-the-strongest-protective-factor Researchers from Massachusetts General Hospital (MGH) have...
✭✭✭✭ 3.22 Emotions, Attention, and Cognition
This episode explores the complex relationship between emotions, cognition, and trauma recovery. It delves into how our family backgrounds and social environments shape our ability to recognize and process emotions. The discussion covers negative priming, overstimulation, and fear responses, explaining how these factors can impact emotional awareness and self-evaluation in trauma survivors. By understanding these connections, individuals can begin to address their emotional dissociation and work towards more effective trauma recovery.
Receiving information I didn’t ask for or need…
You know, if I’m being honest… and I always am… I’m having a bit of a shit day. Nothing has happened, to be clear. I woke up at my boo’s place, we had an average morning, aside from Archie peeing about 3 feet too early as I carried him out. Sat around while I wrote...
Over-stimulation and Trauma Brains
I have to tell you guys, I’ve been having a rough time in one regard lately. I’m not feeling emotionally-off balance or down and out… but I am feeling very unsettled, pressured, and overly-responsive every day. I’m just a bit agitated. Frustrated. Anxious and...
Just a journal entry from a stressed day
Just wanted to share a random example of me talking to myself via writing. It’s always an effective way for me to tap into whatever is bothering me so I can move the fuck on. I’ve been feeling flooded with stimulation, information, and expectation to the...
3.21 Annnnd I no longer trust myself to be in any relationship
So, it’s been a rough relationship past. Now… is it possible to make good decisions? Or am I headed down a narc spiral again?
Anti-self behaviors
Shoutout to Tina. Posting this as an early release on Patreon, in case it helps.
✭✭ 3.20 Evolutionary Basis of Emotions
Hey, quick question… What are emotions? Not “where do they come from in the brain.” We’re all tired of the limbic system at this point. I mean, what are they and why do we have them? Today, I’m talking about the evolutionary derivation of...Welcome, Patron Fuckers!
So, uh, I guess now that I have patrons in my Patreon, I have to deliver on the extra personal posts, huh? Alright, time to get a bit self-indulgent. Well, I guess that first I just want to say, welcome and thanks for being here! I can’t verbalize how crazy it is...
✭✭✭ 3.19 Self-sabotage and Dissociation
Shoutout to Tina. Posting this as an early release on Patreon, in case it helps.
Transcript | Annnnd I no longer trust myself to be in any relationship
Full disclosure: I did a thing I definitely shouldn’t have done. It was stupid, it was compulsive, and it is paying off in mentally-distracted dividends that I do not appreciate. Hey, who’s struggling to write for the first time in years? It’s this asshole, right...